Hi~
What a beautiful day! Delton tells me it is nice outside, but the temperature on my indoor/outdoor thermometer is enought to keep me inside, socks on, drinking tea.
Delton and I- and Avi- got away this week to a CenPeCo meeting. While Avi slept one morning, I had time to read A Confident Heart. This time whet my appetite, making me wish I had hours and hours to study, journal, pray through, and assimilate all that I read...then craft a deep, hard-hitting, tear inducing blog to express just what you need to hear.
I can't give them what they need.
Someone else would do a better job at this... Can you tell that I need this book?
I am halfway through chapter 6- When Doubt Whispers "I'm Not Good Enough". I was aware of some areas where the enemy had a foothold in my life, where the familiar whispers of doubt continued to plague me. Yet, in reading these pages, and taking the time to listen to the whisper of the Spirit, I realized there were some deeper lies that I had been walking in. Deeper areas, more central to the core of who I am.
In other words, I was used to fighting off the enemy's lies about my worth based on how clean my house is or how I am doing with my eating...but this time I saw that these lies were just a shadow of some deeper lies. Lies about how I saw myself, lies about what situations in childhood had destroyed in me...It is hard to describe, and I don't have a complete handle on what I discovered...but I believe that I am on a journey toward hearing only the voice of the Beloved...a voice that has been drowned out by the voice of the enemy, by my own pain and regret.
I don't like the image of being broken, because life has taught me that items, once broken, can never be fully restored. Yet, placing my life in the hands of the Master Potter, my Creator, gives me the assurance of safety. Break me, shatter me, mold me and make me...I place my life in your hands, to do with me as You desire.
~~~These are my thoughts, from my journey. We started out reading this book to journey together, to walk together into healing, into a better understanding of the Love of our soul. Tuesday evening we come together again at Charlene's house. Once again, we will enjoy some food and laughter (always laughter!!), and also an opportunity to hear more of the hears of the women we are walking alongside. Each of you has a story, a journey, a hope and a future.
Would you still come if I asked you to talk for a few minutes? Would you feel safe enough to share what these last few months have meant to you?
Please come. Please feel safe. Please ask God what He would have you share- the wisdom each of us will get only through each other.
Until I see you again...blessings...
Charity
